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Knowing my God, my Lord, my Creator

Even though I’m Wayne, I need to be frank.

I greatly disappoint myself and regularly.  I often feel that I’m a failure husband, dad, youth group teacher, son to my earthly parents on both sides and a neglectful friend.  But worse than all of those is my feeling that I am a failure child of my Creator God Almighty.

Yet all of the former feelings of failure are linked to the latter, which all stems from my relationship with God.

With each passing day (I’ve recently noticed wrinkles forming on my forehead and creases at the corner of my eyes in addition to my almost-completely grey head) one thing is becoming more and more obvious: at the end of this extremely short life, nothing else will matter other than my relationship with my God.  Do I know Jesus?  Do I really know Jesus?  Does He know me?

People throw the idea of ‘knowing God’ around in a similar sense as ‘being one with god’ which is a popular term in new age religions.  The same people who say this like to say, “I’m spiritual but I’m not religious” – yet when asked to further explain this seemingly exciting status are unable to say much more.

My Sikh [will I ever stop mixing up the ‘h’ and ‘k’ when I spell that word?] friend – whom I do truly call a friend – likes to speak to me of ‘god as divine energy’ or ‘god is everywhere’.  On this Wiki page about the Sikh faith, it presents the idea of being able to choose any path to end up at the same god.  It says that god has infinite names yet is somehow still ‘knowable’.  All of this believing yet they do not accept the idea of a ‘personal God’ in the way that believing Christians do (I use the term ‘believing Christians’ to differentiate true disciples of Jesus from those who just go to a church on Sunday to massage their conscience).  These ‘any-god-is-ok’ ideas are quite attractive to the person who is not a spiritually dry man walking through the endless desert of life.  Talking about a god and trying to know a god sounds great.  But here’s the thing:

I need to know God *now*.

My soul cannot wait any longer.  It is thirsty beyond belief – yea, even to the point of death – and though all these discussions are intellectually stimulating and the debates exciting, my soul needs living water.  And when I drink this water I shall never thirst again but it will instead be a well of water springing up into everlasting life (John 4).

Man, I’m thirsty these days.

Yet, though I know the Truth, I, like many other believing Christians, have been deceived by the world and its plethora of offerings of temporal satisfaction.  I have allowed the things of this short life to pull me away from my one true love – Jesus.

I have recently been thinking about my salvation experience back in 1998.  I was so empty and spiritually thirsty.  I tried everything the world had to offer – all those carnal pleasures – and nothing left me satisfied for more than a very short period of time. I was always thirsty again and increasingly.  I was like a man drinking salt water.  I kept trying to tape up the hole in my spiritual bucket but the tape would soon give way and my bucket would dry.  I didn’t like the world or myself in those days.

But then I met Jesus.  And when I’m talking ‘met’ I mean ‘met’.  He moved into my life and poured His sweet Spirit into my parched soul and it was like the first rain on a cracked dry soil.

I began to rejuvenate and hope arrived.  Hope.  Man, how I love hope.  Without hope we answer “Same ol’, same ol” when someone asks us how we’re doing.  On Mondays we answer, ‘Well, it’s Monday.” with a grumpy-pants face and, ‘Yay! It’s Friday!” with a happy face on Fridays and then repeat the dismal cycle.  It reminds me of my friend Adrian’s theory of the drink-work cycle: people work hard from Monday to Friday and then spend all their money on booze on the weekend to try to forget the workweek leaving them with no money on Monday and having to work hard again.  But hope – true hope – makes today a new, fresh, and exciting day.  What will God do today?  Where will He take me?  Who will he put in my path?  Who can I share this good news with today?  Hope is so precious.

Strength came, too.  When suffering, hardship, or general challenges came, I didn’t get bitter and hopeless.  God kept my chin up and gave me joy in the midst of tribulation.  I was much more bold back then.  I would preach the good news from a street corner or on a bus.  Give me a mic and I would tell you about Jesus and what He did for me.

But then something happened.  I let the distractions of this earth slowly creep into the time that I used to dedicate to my relationship with my God and my Saviour.  Then strength to resist sin became more difficult and eventually sin occurred – just as the Bible explains it in James chapter 1:

14 but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. 15 Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

Then guilt followed the sin and it became yet more difficult to come back to my Holy and Perfect God.  It’s an age-old trap set up by the enemy of God, the devil.  I took the bait and that was that.

But thankfully, I’m parched again and I know what’s going on.  I know that there is just one thing that will fix everything: knowing God.  And you can’t tell me otherwise.  As my first pastor Randy said “A man with an experience in God is not at the mercy of a man with a theory.”  He’s right.  I’ve tasted a hint of the sweet presence of God Almighty and I want it again.

So what are the components of knowing God?  This magazine article from In Touch Ministries is absolutely excellent.  Read it if you have time.  Here is a video sermon on the same topic by the same people if you forgot how to read.  But the summary of the story is easy.  How do you get to know anyone?  You give them your time and your heart.  If you give them your time without your heart, there is no intimacy.  If you give them your heart and no time, there is no substance.  Think of the relationship between man and wife: why do some cuddle and hold hands when they go out while others read the newspaper?  What happened to the intimacy and the desire? Probably a lack of dedication to the relationship, I’m guessing.

And so it is with God, the Creator of us and all things.  He made us unlike any other created being so that He could have a relationship with us.

Even though I type this seemingly heartfelt blog, I’m giving my time to the blog and not God. I need to stop typing and go and fall on my face and praise Him for the wonderful things He has done.  I need to speak to Him about my financial struggles and ask Him to pour out His Spirit on me so I can endure to see the recovery.  I need to pray for protection for my family.  I need to talk to my God and get this relationship with Him back on track.

I don’t want to walk into heaven as someone who knew ‘about God’.  I want a real and intimate relationship with Him.  Nothing less will do. I don’t want to be one of those people who think of God as ‘somewhere out there’ – and that’s exactly how my relationship with God was getting.  But no longer.

I’m so thirsty.

The alternative is death, but I want life – badly.

Excuse me while I end this blog post so that I can go to my Heavenly Father through Jesus who made it possible.


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5 thoughts on “Knowing my God, my Lord, my Creator

  1. Nice testimony. Human efforts will always fail. But, that doesn’t mean that you are a failure. God is not a failure.
    Galatians 2:20. We all need to allow Him to live more.

    The book I gave you kind of touches on what you described here.

  2. In the Holy Qur’an 112:1-4), God (Allah in Arabic) gives a very concise and deep depiction of Himself through the Lips of Muhammad (peace be upon him):
    [English Translation]
    Say: He is Allah, the One and Only! Allah, the Eternal, Absolute; He begetteth not nor is He begotten. And there is none like unto Him.

    The message of Absolute oneness of the Almighty was there since the beginning of the time. The prophets, great men of time,(including Adam, Noah, Moses,Jesus and Muhammad (peace be onto them all), totally submitted to the creator of the heavens and the earth and spread this message among their people. They called people towards goodness and inform and warn them that all their prayers and worships belongs to the Creator , The Master of the day of judgement, The Just, and The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful .

    1. Yes. Except Muhammad – he wasn’t in the Bible in which are founds the Words of Life. And Adam – he wasn’t submitted to the creator of the heavens completely. He ate the nasty fruit. Thanks.

      1. The prayer of Adam in repentance is mentioned in the Holy Quran . 7:23: [English Translation]
        ” Our Lord! We have wronged ourselves. If You forgive us not, and bestow not upon us Your Mercy, we shall certainly be of the losers.” his prayer was accepted by the Almighty God. Thus for us, Adam(pbuh) our great great father , remains a figure of high respect. To this day, a believer who has sinned against himself, has this great tool of repentance to connect to his Maker, afterall He is All forgiving , All merciful.

        Quran was revealed to Muhammad (pbuh), and was collected as spoken verses about 1400 years ago. Quran confirms the Jesus of Bible. Quran talk about the miraculous birth of Jesus (pbuh) and mention Mary , the mother of Jesus (pbuh) as the righteous women. The 3rd chapter of Quran is al-Imran is about the family of Mary, 19th chapter of the Quran is about Mary. Quran mentions Jesus in several verses (93) and confirms the miracles of Jesus.

        Regarding Jesus Miraculous birth, Quran, 3:47 [English Translation]
        She said, “My Lord, how will I have a child when no man has touched me?” [The angel] said, “Such is Allah (God) ; He creates what He wills. When He decrees a matter, He only says to it, ‘Be,’ and it is.

        The essence of Bible and Quran is originally the same, worship the one-true God and do-not associate partners with Him.


        1. Ok, I don’t think we need to disagree about Adam. I don’t see Adam praying in my Bible. Here is the basic dialogue after he eats the fruit in Genesis chapter 3:

          God: Adam! Where are you?
          Adam: I was hiding because I was naked.
          God: Who told you you were naked? Did you eat the fruit I told you not to eat?
          Adam: The woman did it! Then she gave some to me…
          God: Ok. Now women are going to have painful childbirth and you will work like a dog until you die.

          I don’t see any prayer there, I don’t see God saying he is a prophet. I see a punishment for a sin explained and Adam accepting it because he knows he’s wrong. No big deal. If you were Adam (or me) we also would have made the same mistake. I don’t see any cause for us to respect the man through whom sin entered the world. If Adam was your natural dad, and he violated God’s *only* command, would you respect him in the way you say? I don’t think so. However, you can respect him (and I do) for the way he *accepted his correct punishment and moved on.

          So, we are clearly reading two different books: the Quaran and the Bible.
          And one must be creating confusion as you and I experiencing here.

          I read the part of the Quran of which you describe here which you say is about Mary’s family (3) and although there are pieces that are the same (ie. Zechariah not being able to speak, the name Mary and there are many, many things that totally differ from the Bible’s account. Also there is a verse about a clay bird becoming a bird (3:49) which I have never heard of! Since the Bible has been proven time and time again to be historically solid, I cannot see how this account in the Quran, gathered much later than the Bible, can be considered reliable. Nor, do I see any reason to consider a newer manuscript like the Quran.

          But you know what? Here is the simplicity of what I know: Jesus said “I am the way, the truth and the life. No one goes to the Father but through me.” Those are strong words. That means that Jesus’ own words make him the *only* way to heaven. No other man. None.

          When I finally believed this, my life changed. In fact, my *heart* changed (read my writing above). No other thing in this earth has been able to change my heart. Nothing else could change me from the inside out.

          I just published this simple page yesterday in case you are interested:

          It’s nice to learn from you.

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