“What do you expect? Sinners sin.” – Unnamed Pastor, 2001
Struggling with disappointment in others and in myself seems to be a never-ending theme in my life. Deep in my heart and in my mind has always been the very keen awareness that there does exist somewhere perfection.
The concept of perfection is set deep in all of our consciousness. We all know things were supposed to be perfect but they aren’t. Some people seem to be able to cope better in this imperfect world whereas people like myself take imperfection very personally (and sometimes hard).
In myself, I have a strong desire to live in a very perfect and systematized world where I go to the cupboard, open it, and find exactly what I need and instantly because it’s perfectly organized. When I leave the cupboard, it should close by itself because why would a cupboard that doesn’t close itself even exist in a perfect world? It simply wouldn’t. I desire also that the food items in the fridge would be in a perfect rotation (like what you would have in a retail environment) so that old food moves to the front so that food wastage is reduced to zero. My alarm would always work perfectly and I would always be up before 4am so that I could maximize the day – reading my Bible and spending time in prayer so that I would then have the strength to go to my wife and kids, and love them with all that I have – encouraging them and being a great inspiration to them.
I would then start my day and I would call people, leave them a message of value, and they would call me back when they got my message. The suppliers that I work with would supply everything on time and the communication would always be predictable. Inside the company, everyone would be on the same page and things would never have to be repeated twice because even children don’t require that kind of babysitting usually. One email sent would conclude the matter and I could move on. Balls would not get dropped because everyone else also wants a perfect world, surely. Surely it’s not just me who wants a perfect world and a world without fights and tension.
In all facets of life, when something is communicated transparently and clearly such as ‘this is very important to me’ then no person would throw that aside and do exactly what would upset or hurt me because I have clearly explained to them how to not upset or hurt me. I made it impossible for them to hurt me…
Yet everything and everyone is broken.
Broken, broken, broken.
Imperfect, screwed up and lost.
Yes. Including me – as much as I despise the thought of being ‘one of them’.
How can I possibly live like this?
How can I go on?
How can I not quit and get into despair and depression?
Everything is so, so broken.
Thankfully, there is hope and with this hope, I write the rest of this really to encourage myself. I hope that as I write this next part that someone else also benefits from what I believe will be deep revelation.
You can (and should) read about how there was a time when humans walked in the earth in perfection. They didn’t fight, they walked in the cool of the day with God and they had dominion over nature. Things were perfect.
But all men are sinners, thanks to Adam/Eve making a poor life choice. Here is exactly how bad it is. Read it. Soak it in. Really get a grasp on this reality:
As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one: There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God. They are all gone out of the way, they are together become unprofitable; there is none that doeth good, no, not one. Their throat [is] an open sepulchre; with their tongues they have used deceit; the poison of asps [is] under their lips: Whose mouth [is] full of cursing and bitterness: Their feet [are] swift to shed blood: Destruction and misery [are] in their ways: And the way of peace have they not known: There is no fear of God before their eyes. … For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God (Romans 3:10-18, 23)
And so we have a pre-programmed hunger for that Garden of Eden perfection, yet we live in broken vessels full of wickedness. Here is how we live now:
For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, [even] his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse: (Romans 1:20)
We *know* God is out there. And we *know* He is perfect. His creation all around it *proves* it beyond the shadow of a doubt.
Even our own minds have gone dark:
Because that, when they knew God, they glorified [him] not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. (Rom 1:21)
And so this life remains a balance between grace and longing. We long to be with our Creator in perfect perfection forever, yet we need His grace to get there. Once we have this grace we can then possibly have the grace required to deal with others around us. Once we realize this incredible brokenness and weakness we are living in, it’s very difficult to expect others to be perfect. In fact, you would be downright surprised when they get anything right, or do anything good.
I’ll never forget this one time when I approached a pastor to vent my incredible disappointment towards someone. He asked me “Is he a believer?” I replied “No.” He then said the most simple thing that has helped me ever since when he replied back “Sinners sin. That’s what they do.”
He was perfectly right. Our very nature is full to the brim of sin. Our only desire is wickedness and selfishness and our programming code is so messed up that all we know to do is wickedness.
Lately, I have decided to make this whole thing much more simple for myself. When dealing with myself and all the disappointments I have in myself, I’m going to remind myself that I’m not perfect, and that although it’s ok to long for perfection, it’s not ok to expect it on earth. I’m also going to spend more time asking God to totally change my nature. I know that it is a biblical promise for this change, and I need it real bad. The more that God changes my nature to be like him, the more grace I will have towards myself and others. Here is the promise onto which I firmly grasp:
Therefore if any man [be] in Christ, [he is] a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
Until then, I’m going to simply one step further. I’m going to look at every person, no matter who they are and their background or current status in the world and say:
“Look at this poor, broken vessel. How much God loves this person and how much God wants to start the work of transformation him/her! But this person is broken and unable to do even the things they want to do. They, like me, fail themselves daily and others. When they fail you or disappoint you, never forget they are broken. God, help me to love them just as they are and help me, a broken vessel, deal with them the best I can with your strength.”
A to the MEN!
Unlike previous blog posts, I’m going to start this one with two exciting tables to get you thinking. In the first table, I increased freedom and in the second table, I decreased it so that we could look at the effect, if any, on other items. Sorry, they are just image screenshots:
Someone sent me over this article written by Mark Shuttleworth, chief of Canonical – the company behind Ubuntu.
Usually, Mr. Shuttleworth writes with excitement, hope, positivity and other such forward-moving adjectives. Unlike pretty much anything else I have read written by him, this article sounded more like a dad who was forced by his disobedient kids to lay down the hard law. Just the tone alone being so different from his usual, caught my attention.
It appears that some unnamed European corporation has taken the Ubuntu code (written for free by many coders and volunteers around the world and maintained by the for-profit company Canonical at their heavy cost of time and money), done a few ‘things’ to it, and published it as ‘their own’. For full disclosure, I haven’t done any of my own research like looking at the notice of claims against them. However, what I’m picking up from the article is that the soon-to-be defendantscontributed little or nothing to the base code that made ubuntu what it is today
- invested little or no money to the ubuntu project
- decreased the quality of the user experience
- harmed the Ubuntu name
- harmed Canonical by means of all of the above
If this is true, it should not be difficult to prove monetary damages for Canonical plus I’m guessing there will be a lot of angry programmers out there who would rally beside Mr. Shuttleworth for screwing up all their volunteer work.
From a bird’s eye view it seems like a suitable analogy for this behaviour would be something like this:
Imagine a grade 5 teacher creating a cool project where the students build a gizmo that’s valuable to the world – let’s say it creates clean drinking water out of thin air. Next thing you know, all the parents and grandparents are excited about the project and start volunteering their time to help build it and make it better. Next thing you know, a company (let’s call them Company A) picks up on the project and realizes that they can help improve the project by funding certain parts plus they can make some money as well because some industries will want an industrial version of these water-makers which is out of the scope of these volunteers time/money to build or support. So Company A starts investing time and money and builds a business around it while continuing to support the kids’ gizmo proliferation around the world. Out of nowhere, Company B, which has not participated in the project at all, shows up, takes the plans that all these volunteers made and improved on over the years at the cost of their time (and at Company A’s expense, too), and starts making their own industrial water-makers. They slap their own brand on it, change one or two small things and start making money. Then problems start happening. They don’t have a volunteer base of countless thousands who can jump in to improve or fix things when they go wrong, so this makes sense. Company B then routes all the problems of their customers to Company A saying “they have support over there, I think…”
I’m guessing that there would be lots of angry kids and grandparents and most people would agree to take action to stop Company B.
The question of this soon-to-be lawsuit will probably hinge entirely on the licensing of the software. Has this European company violated any software license agreements including the free software licenses of Ubuntu? What exactly did they change? Are they guilty of changing the code or are they guilty of not supporting the code? It will be interesting to read the claim, for sure (if you like reading litigation documents)
This also got me thinking about correlation between freedom and regulation. I know that one of the main reasons why myself and others moved to Ubuntu was for the freedom. We didn’t want to be told by bullies like Apple or Microsoft how we are going to be using our hardware and who will be accessing our private information. I started thinking about un-related industries and correlations between different things when you increase or decrease freedom. I thought it would be timely to share the quick charts that I built.
(review charts above again)
As you can see from the charts, it was an interesting exercise. It seems that in most cases clear changes occur in most columns – except one. I could not determine in any instance that quality increased or decreased with the increase *or decrease* of freedom. At a glance you might quickly disagree with my conclusions, but allow me to explain them.
Drinking water: Although you may increase regulation and decrease freedom to do what you want with your drinking water, it is debatable that the government controlled waters with chlorine, fluoride, and who knows what, is better for you that this or that in a free stream of water. The long term jury is still out on this one.
Voting: To clarify I am referring simply to the freedom to vote and having a regulatory system to govern the actual elections and voting procedure. By regulating or not, does it really help improve the final product (the person you are voting for)? Point proven in recent elections in big North American country…
Guns: Perhaps you could say the quality of the actual physical gun might improve with regulation…. I don’t know enough on the topic, but it would seem to me that a nice old man building a gun in his shop could do just as well as a heavily-regulated gun factory.
Religions beliefs: the ‘negative event’ here would be something like a mass suicide with a cult. The Catholic church is heavily regulated, but is the quality of faith and the fruit of believers higher?
Marriage: I was thinking here free-love marriages versus arranged marriages. Although one might think that by choosing your spouse, instead of your parents choosing him/her might yield a higher-quality spouse/match, I believe the jury is still out on this. Look at the divorces in ‘love marriages’, for example.
So when it’s all said and done the only category where I felt freedom had a measurable impact on quality was in the realm of computer code. No one will deny that the fruity computer company typically has typically stable software which works on stable hardware. But on the other hand, very few of its users, when asked, deny that they feel stifled, controlled and possibly even spied on – if not totally ‘stuck’.
And so there seems to be a much more pronounced correlation between freedom and quality in the world of code.
And that also is why this will be a very interesting legal case to follow. Will Shuttleworth be tempted to pull in some of the freedoms of the Ubuntu code base in order to maintain the quality that Ubuntu deserves? Will a task force of lawyers be commissioned to seek and attack low quality Ubuntu publishers much like how a big proprietary corporation might do?
Until now Ubuntu has wowed the world with its ability to stay both free and yet maintain an incredibly high quality final product which I can boldly say is the same and better than competing proprietary systems in every category. The proof of this quality has been in the pudding with fast world-wide growth with more and more everyday users converting 100% to ubuntu and also in the realm of innovation (look it all up yourself because I don’t even know where to begin!).
On the one hand I’m completely in agreement that selfish individuals and corporations should be stopped in their tracks and made to pay for damaging others. On the other hand, I’m also keenly aware that the freedom of the Ubuntu code must remain of higher importance overall.
I find myself favouring the ‘whatever-it-takes-to-make-sure-ubuntu-comes-out-the-winner’ side but I will remain full open to all sides of this story.
(Audio Version at the bottom if you no like reading)
“I am a scientist and if I can’t back up a scientific fact with scripture, I question it’s validity” – Caroline Leaf
That quote just about sums it up. No matter what way you slice it, if you believe the Bible is the inspired Word of God, you will have to travel down this path with me because the Bible teaches a flat earth.
My position is simple in life these days. My default position is this:
- God is true
- All men are liars
Now that we have that out of the way, here is the expanded list:
- The Word of God is true
- The Bible is the Word of God
- The Bible describes the earth as geo-centric, not heliocentric
- The Bible talks about the world as being an enemy of God
- If the world is against God, then all of the worldly institutions that are in the business of teaching are also against God.
- Public education is ‘in the world’ (and it has also infiltrated the church, of course, and all of its institutions). Funny side note: it’s very funny to me that people complained when the Lord’s prayer was removed from school. I was more shocked it was ever there!
- The Bible teaches of a ‘great deception’ that will come at the end of the world where the whole world, and the weak Christians, will be deceived by the anti-christ in some kind of fraudulent (yet spectacular) world-wide show of pseudo-spirituality that looks somewhat divine.
And so that pretty much sums it up. I have no basis in the Bible to believe anything that comes from these institutions, other than directly observable evidence.
I also have every good reason under the sun to disbelieve every foundational believe system they use to teach anything that in any wise contradicts the solid Word of God. Some examples of these systems that I would question by default would be:
- geologic time measurements
- anything related to a heliocentric model of the earth
This does not mean that I would never believe these things, but it does mean that my default position is 100% disbelief and I will start my journey from that position.
The dialogue about the globe earth would therefore go like this:
A: The earth is round
ME: But the Bible describes the earth predominantly as flat-like so therefore I believe it’s flat until proven otherwise.
A: But what about the pictures of the round earth? that’s first hand evidence for you.
ME: I didn’t take those pictures, nor do I trust the institutions who did. All men are liars. It may be part of a great deception. NASA makes a lot of money to produce photos like those.
A: But what about my friend who went to space himself?
ME: I didn’t go with him. I don’t know your friend well. And where does earth end and where does space begin? And who decided that?
A: But scientists all believe the earth is round.
ME: All of these scientists came out of the same schools which all teach the same things about the world – much like how many theology students will come out of theology school with a bunch of knowledge about the Bible. Just because you are taught something doesn’t mean that it’s true. All men are liars.
A: But you can just take a telescope and look!
ME: Yes, and I have. The moon appears to be round with craters indeed. But I don’t believe a man has parked a 1960’s Volkswagen Beetle dressed up as a space ship on it. All men are liars.
And so the dialogue goes.
The problem is that I don’t have a lot of time to go and do a bunch of science. This leaves me in a position where I have to believe what is right for the amount of knowledge that I have, while slowly picking away at my own research.
As for me, I will believe God at His Word and I will enjoy the earth that way – in a child-like simplicity. I will look at the cosmos the same way that Abraham did and rejoice greatly in the beauty of God’s handiwork.
As the stars turn around this incredible stage called our life – all designed by a loving God for our enjoyment in whatever short few seconds we have left here.
In this I rejoice greatly and have much peace.
The Audio Version of this Post
I have come back to this awesome comic for nearly 10 years now. I finally had to log it here because it’s worthy.
I will eventually expand this to other areas of tech, but for now enjoy this!
Someone I know shared this text message conversation about a business decision really got me thinking:
Person A: What do you have to give up to get their $ ?
Person B: I don’t care what I have to give up as long as I get a small piece of a much larger pie. I’ve learned success is largely about the team.
Person A: If all you need is capital, don’t sell your equity – huge mistake…
In the past I would have agreed completely with Person A, however, as I started thinking, this sentence kept rolling around in my head which I couldn’t ignore:
“What is equity?”
Immediately after sentence began circulating I decided to look up the etymology of the word ‘equity‘ because, from my time in the Bible the only usage that I could remember was in terms of ‘justice’ or ‘fairness’ such as in the following quick example:
But with righteousness shall he judge the poor, and reprove with equity for the meek of the earth: and he shall smite the earth with the rod of his mouth, and with the breath of his lips shall he slay the wicked. (Isaiah 11:4)
So how did such a great and righteous word like equity become synonymous with owning a piece of a corporate pie?
I did further searching online and could not come up with an excellent answer that satisfied. There were many posts, links and sites pointing to the term equity in terms of law, but nothing that I could find related to this common practice of calling ownership in a company ‘equity’.
I have heard people recently use the term ‘brand equity’ which further proves that the term is shifting or has shifted from it’s original meaning of ‘fairness’ to this current meaning of ‘asset’ or ‘ownership’.
Almost every day we hear a sentence like this ‘He is building equity.’
Unfortunately, I must, due to a severe lack of time, throw in the towel of finding the answer to my question in the root or history of the word itself. I will appease myself by making up this historical assumption that “The word equity must have come from the fair, or unfair division of business or real estate assets amongst people and it’s relation to the courts use of the word ‘equity'”. In short, there were probably many unequitable deeds done in business by predatory and greed sociopaths so that the term ‘assets’ and ‘equity’ became synonymous. There. Good enough.
But… it got me thinking spiritually as well. At the same time I wondered what the word itself meant and where it was rooted, I also remember very clearly that Jesus taught about assets and ownership of things in this world. Here are some bullet points:
- But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. (Mat 6:33)
- Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: 20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: 21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. (Mat 6:19-21)
- Go to now, [ye] rich men, weep and howl for your miseries that shall come upon [you]. 2 Your riches are corrupted, and your garments are motheaten. 3 Your gold and silver is cankered; and the rust of them shall be a witness against you, and shall eat your flesh as it were fire. Ye have heaped treasure together for the last days. 4 Behold, the hire of the labourers who have reaped down your fields, which is of you kept back by fraud, crieth: and the cries of them which have reaped are entered into the ears of the Lord of sabaoth. 5 Ye have lived in pleasure on the earth, and been wanton; ye have nourished your hearts, as in a day of slaughter. 6 Ye have condemned [and] killed the just; [and] he doth not resist you. (Jas 5:1-6)
And there are more.
The crux of the matter is this:
- Whereas ye know not what [shall be] on the morrow. For what [is] your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away. (Jas 4:14)
But wait, there is a bigger crux:
- The earth [is] the LORD’S, and the fulness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein. (Psa 24:1)
And the summary is this:
- The earth is the Lord’s. We didn’t make it. We can’t take it with us. We can’t own it. It’s not ours. We are tenants here for a short time.
- You can’t own anything. You think you own a house or a business but ask yourself this very simple yet clearly forgotten question: Can you own _____ forever? The answer is an obvious and child-like ‘No’.
So then, what’s wrong with selling 99% of your equity of your 1% can provide for the needs of your family, build a bigger, better, and more ethical company, and spread life and abundance to the world instead of death and destruction?
Isn’t it just a matter of who is on your team, not the size of your pizza slice that dictates all this?
Maybe I’m naive and maybe I’ll get hurt again because of it but life is a vapour regardless so I’m going to keep on the narrow path while I’m here.
This article on the ARRL website summarizes quite well the situation with ham radio – and radio in general.
Although it is exciting to be part of a club of radio enthusiasts around the world, one must question whether the licensing system on its own is a hindrance both to freedom and innovation.
The basic debate has these two sides:
Restrict Frequencies for Licencees
“By proving skills and taking tests, you can keep a higher quality of person on the frequencies. If we don’t do this we will have CB radio on ham frequencies”
Let Them Go
“By restricting access to the airwaves we all breath and share, you are exerting controls that should not be there – especially on a technology that enables humans to transmit data. By restricting the airwaves you are limiting both God-given freedom of speech but also innovation because the technology remains only in the hands of those who can (and will) exploit it for gain.”
And it’s a very great debate and one worthy of fighting for.
For anyone who appreciates truth, before you start believing blindly that there were ancient alien worlds on other planets, make sure you understand the following things about the stuff being provided to you by Nasa and their obedient dog named Rover… I mean Curiosity.
This image is a composite, not a photograph, nor something in our hands to look at ourselves
Their own website says ‘composite’ – go read it yourself.
Credibility of Crew and Landing Appears ‘Highly Questionable’ at Best
Just watch this and decide if you can trust the folks who bring you the news. I apologize for the periodic profane word here and there and the way he refers to ‘idiots’ but his presentation is solid. Make sure you make it at least to the Q & A session starting at 15:35 to get a real feel for the folks at top because it ought to really blow your mind…
So before you order these eggs, make sure at least they are real before you pay the bill …
Answer: No, I would definitely *not* purchase a used car from Adam Steltzner.
Thinking of buying the next iphone?
Make sure you review this important video to make sure it’s the right fit for you.
If you find it’s not, be sure to research the Ubuntu phone which is built on a totally different philosophy.
It’s very important to make it clear that the author of this blog is not L’il Wayne. I was blogging before L’il Wayne was a thing. Sorry L’il Wayne. Ain’t nothing but a chicken wing.
I’ve also noticed that these young bucks started a band called “Fountains of Wayne” which was clearly stolen from this blog. That’s ok. I forgive them because I actually like their Weezer-like direction of music. I’m going to let that one go, but just know that all their inspiration comes from me – Wayne Out There.
There is also a car racer named Wayne. I’m also not him.
And, of course, let it be known that I am not Wayne Gretzsky, though some have accused me of stealing fame from him. This is false accusation.
The original Wayne is HERE
Now that I’ve set the record straight, you go have yourself a nice day
Wayne Out There.
Really? Nothing to write about?
Is that possible in Ubuntu?
I could understand having nothing to write about in Apple, in Google or in Microsoft because you can only talk about what they let you talk about.
Perhaps in Apple you could write about your frustrations about how you own the only phone that can’t use a friend’s mini usb charger. Perhaps you could write about how you feel enslaved and want to break free and have something truly smart in your pocket. But after that there is absolutely nothing left to write about with Apple. It’s just a thing. It’s just electronic ‘stuff’ like a watch or a necklace or a running shoe (with batteries).
In Google perhaps you could write about how you know someone is watching you and you know you are being tracked and compromised for the free email you agreed to sign up for and that you are scared and don’t know what to do. But once that article is over, there’s nothing more to write about. It’s just spying and you aren’t willing to close your bedroom window curtains to stop it.
But in Ubuntu having nothing to write about is actually impossible unless you – personally – have lost the vision or, worse, never had it in the first place.
I didn’t come to Ubuntu because it worked better, looked better or could toast my bread with the usb device (although that would actually be pretty awesome – and go figure it already exists!). No, I came to ubuntu because it absolutely BLEW MY MIND (that’s the first time I’ve blogged italics and underline together like that I think) that a group of people could get together on a project and end up putting out something that TRUMPED (under-talicked again!) the above mentioned monopolists in both vision, potential, and freedom.
It was night versus day.
And it was exciting!
That was seven years ago and my excitement towards the project has only skyrocketed in the last year with Ubuntu in my pocket and convergence on the horizon.
Nothing to write about??? You should change the blog to WTFubuntu…
How about write about freedom and future?
How about write about revolution?
And if that isn’t exciting enough to fixate upon, you could publish testimonies of people who have been impacted by Ubuntu or who have impacted others.
I’m not trying to say you haven’t done some good informative stuff, because you have, but if you can’t find something to write about, please don’t publish something that makes it sound as if there is nothing to write about!
Maybe this is your problem. You wrote this:
Get In Touch (Seriously, We Love It)
Whether you’ve made an app, theme or nifty little script you’d like the world to know about, or have stumbled upon some fresh news you think we really ought to mention (and that hasn’t been covered to death elsewhere) please do get in touch.
1. Is an app newsworthy? Maybe if you are searching for one, but I’m not sure this is what stirs the hearts of the people and draws them to Ubuntu.
2. Is a theme or a script newsworthy? Not to 97% of the people I know. So how about not asking them for this nor publishing it moving forward? That will drive up interest in your blog by pure statistics.
3. If you angle something correctly you should be able to cover news from elsewhere *better* than others because you can publish about it from an Ubuntu perspective. To say you don’t want to cover news because someone else did makes me wonder about your passion as a writer.
But here is the bottom line. Perhaps the stuff you are writing about is not OMG at all. Perhaps you could start writing about bigger picture things. Not only would your own imagination run wild but you could use your great forum as a place to inspire the minds of people who are pretty darn uninspired out there.
Let us move forward inspiring the world with Ubuntu shall we?